This letter is inspired by the story of Hannah found in 1 Samuel 1 and 2.
“My heart rejoices in the Lord; in the Lord, my strength is lifted high. My mouth boasts over my enemies; for I delight in your deliverance.” (1 Samuel 2:1, NIV)
I found these words in my prayer journal this morning, and I remember the day that praise took root in my heart. I assure you, sisters, I haven’t always been this bold.
I held my son closer than usual that day, my arms further securing his place near my heart with each breath. His latch onto my breast seemed tighter as well. Did he know what had been planned for him before his birth?
I closed my eyes and remembered the morning when he first came into this world. I remembered the days when he was in my womb. And, I remembered the night of his conception. That was the night the Lord remembered me.
I was barren for years. The ridicule I suffered merely served as an echo of the shame that strangled my soul. I was showered with love from my husband; his adoration for me excelled that of my rival. But, societal facts spoke louder: a woman who cannot reproduce is worthless.
Though in despair, my heart never grew cold. I wept in the dark at the failure of my flesh, knowing in the morning, my hope would rise once again. I wasn’t sure how long I’d be able to bear this cycle. On our yearly trip to the Lord’s house in Shiloh, I broke down. In deep anguish, I cried out to the Lord, unabashed by the dignity of the scene before me.
“Lord Almighty, if You will remember me and give me a son, I will give him to You for all the days of his life.” (1 Samuel 1:11, paraphrased)
I didn’t care that everyone heard. I didn’t care that they saw my pain, that the hurt they spoke over me accomplished its work. All that mattered was that God heard my cry.
He remembered me.
And now I sit, caressing my treasure, confident in the God who sees, knows, and cares. I give this child, Samuel, to the Lord, honoring His faithfulness toward me by keeping my promise.
Almighty has been my strength, and sister, He’ll be yours too! Regard the truth of His Word over the jealous jargon of the unjust. Know that He is faithful and He is your exceedingly great reward.
In Our Father’s Love,